January 4, 2010
Mommy, There are so many memories to pick from- I’m not sure it would be a good idea to list them all. I’m sure people would find many of them endearing and some funny. Where to begin...I remember the first day I went to school and how we went shopping and you bought me a dress called the Cinderella Dress. I felt so good in that dress and felt like a princess and you told me I was. I remember when I would get to school and then leave and Hide under a bride till all the busses would be done and then I would walk home and you would have to call the school to have them come pick me up and take me back. I just wanted to be home with my Mommy. It was a serious matter back then, but to me now it is funny. I also remember I was mad at you and Daddy-I think and I told you I was running away to Grandma Epps house. You said go ahead and to pack the things I thought I would need and as I walked out the front door You told me good-bye and smiled and said I Love you and to say hello to Grandma for you. I took my suit case and walked down the start and thought for awhile as to which way to go and how I was going to get there, I sat on the suit case and contemplated it and after a very long while I went back home and told you I had changed my mind because I couldn't figure out how to get there. You just smiled and said that it was ok and I could go unpack if I decided to stay -of course I did. I was 5 or 6 years old then. Then there was the time I set the curtains on fire in our bedroom. I was putting candles all over the room and had lit them and then put one behind the curtain because I thought it would be pretty. As I went to go get you to show you, the curtain caught fire. I yelled for you and you came in and grabbed the curtain rod ran from the bed room through the house and out the front door and put it out on the lawn. You never yelled at me you just said that I had done a very dangerous thing and to never do it again. I was scared to death and went into the bedroom and crawled into my bed and cover up with a wool blanket-head and all-and went to sleep. I don't think she told Daddy what had happened or he would have given me a good spanking-which I never got from either. I still have this fascination for fire though-LOL. Then there was the time Donna and I was being silly and ratted our hair up all over and then you came outside with us as we all posed for a picture. It was silly, but it was fun!!! There was the time I had Julie. You were there at the hospital and were there when she was born. You were the first one to see her and I remember that I told You she was going to be a girl and was also going to suck her thumb. Well we never made it to the delivery room, she was born in the hall and as they showed her to you I heard you say,"Oh no Julie, don't do that� She had immediately put her thumb in her mouth. LOL. Then when Julie was 3 days old I became deathly ill and the Dr. at the hospital said I needed to stay over night as I was too ill to go home and take care of my new baby and Billy. I had promised Billy-he was just 3 and a half -That I was going to be okay and he watched as the neighbor had to carry me out of the house and down the stairs as I was unable to walk or stand. He was very afraid but I promised him I would come home afterwards and I would be ok and his Aunt Debbie was there and would take care of him and everything would be ok. I refused to stay as Billy thought I was going to die and I had to go home. Somehow mom, You talked the Dr. into letting me go home with the promise You would stay and watch over me and the baby and Billy and would call an ambulance if I were to get worse. After huge doses of antibiotics in shot form and oral pill's given, I went home and You watched over me like a hawk. That also was the first time Julie slept through the night and she was just 4 days old. The next morning I was perfectly fine and you stayed 1 more day to be sure I was able to take care of us all. The point I am trying to make is that you were always there when I needed you the most when I had no one else to depend on. You were also there when I was being foolish as a young child often is-as aren’t all thing magnified when you are little- and found the humor and the love inside you for us- no matter how difficult or how silly we were You usually always could find the humor and the capacity to Laugh Love and take care of just about any situation we found ourselves in back then. When Don and I met you called him son the 1st. time you met him and you both were Mother and Son with only 7 years between you but you love him and he has always Loved you from that day forward. I Loved the times when I came to visit you and Aunt Bev and you and I would go out to lunch. Those were very special to me. We did it only a few times and I would have loved to have done it forever but we, Don and I had to move out of State and it happened once or twice after that-I really missed those times alone together. I could go on and on and there would never be enough said, and I will write to you again until I get to see you again, so we will always be in touch, however this one time it is for all to see and to know you were and are and have always been my LOVE , MY MOM!!!!! I may not have always shown it but I have ALWAYS SAID IT to YOU EACH and EVERYTIME I spoke to you and I saw you and looked into your face and kissed your mouth and sometimes whispered it in your ear. Now today I say it for the whole world to see and know this is true and I will for all time ‘cause no matter how mad or upset with me you became I ALWAYS KNEW you LOVED ME TOO as I did YOU and know You will FOREVERMORE IN my Heart and in my Soul . Until we meet again Mom, You are and always will be my first True LOVE, Diana
